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And so, here I am. Another year older. It doesn't feel like it, though.

It started off interestingly enough.
I've never been blindfolded and kidnapped before.

I have a twisted sister and friends.

But standing there, slightly disoriented from being led around in total darkness, listening to them singing a very off-tune "Happy Birthday", their comfortably familiar, slightly drunk, beaming faces illuminated only by the light from candles on a yummy chocolate-hazelnut cake, I was bursting with love. And gratitude.

I'll miss every one of them sorely when I'm gone.

I got lots of nice, thoughtful things and I didn't have to fake appreciation at all. I love when that happens.

The rest of the day was more or less unremarkable. That's because the real party's a little later. THAT...is going to be something.

La sorella had a rough day though. I just wish it hadn't ended as badly as it did for her. I don't know how much of that was my fault, she won't tell me. Even if she doesn't want to, I just hope she knows how much I want to fix it.

Scraps

That's what's been playing in my head.

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I watched him as he gently picked up an old Hasselblad 500 CM camera off the shelf.
He lovingly wiped it clean with a soft cloth. He looked up and smiled at me.
"At one time, these were like extensions of myself."
I was surprised by the softness in his tone and the wistful look in his eyes.
He doesn't have these moments often. It felt good to be trusted.

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I've joined the gym again. I'm sore and achy all over and I love every second of it.
I'm going to be all hot and sexy soon. Fuck you, I AM.

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Someone interesting I met at a party asked for my number. And even though it meant nothing, for various reasons, it's been a long, long time since that happened and it felt good.

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The other day, I was alone in the pool. I was floating around on my back and looking up at the ceiling. I was thinking about the fact that I'm still young, relatively healthy and had nothing major to worry about. It felt good to be alive. I started to flop about like a dolphin. It's a good thing there was nobody else there.

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My father now smells of Individuel by Mont Blanc.

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One of the most special things in the world is the relationship between a boy and his dog. It transcends stupid human relationships.

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One of the sexiest parts of a man's body is the back of his head and his nape.
It's one of the few parts he's more or less unaware of. The word 'vulnerable' comes to mind *shrug*

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I'm going to be an aunt in May. I'm so excited. WOO HOO!

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There's more, but I'm a little fuzzy in the head right now.


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